It has been a long time since I have written anything that was just because I enjoy writing. I spend a good bit of my energy worrying about what to write and then nothing gets written. Fellow writers understand.
Today, I am feeling sad and really sentimental. I miss so many people in my life. And they are people I have access to everyday either in a very tangible way or via some sort communication device. What happened to me? I have always been a people person. Jerry-fucking-Maguire. Close the deal. Everything seemed ok. My girlfriend was crazy about me, my mom and I were getting along, it seemed like I had friends but no ambition and drive about anything professional or anything resembling a job that paid me consistently.
Now? I am going back to school, work full time and get my articles done on time and see no one. And miss everyone. And I feel like shit for being needy and saying "HEY I AM STILL HERE. I'M JUST BETTER NOW"
This trade off sucks. I miss laughing with my mom and my kids, friends and I miss my girlfriend.
You wanna know why one is the loneliest number? Because once you make yourself number one. There's no one else around.
I love you. You know we can get together and ignore each other, anytime you'd like. =)
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