I resolve...

I said on facebook that one of my resolutions is to write often. I am challenging myself to do that. When I write, I usually write about politics, identity or random musings. Essentially, what I assume that people want to hear from me and not necessarily what I want to write. So I am guessing that my resolution is to actually write more authentically about what I want to write about and if it ends up that I write the same way then I guess that is who I am...

2012 was a really big year for me, I did a lot of things that I have always wanted to do, I stood up for myself more, I ran a 5k, I lost weight, I expressed my needs, I got engaged and I moved to the Pacific Northwest. I got a tattoo and cut off all my hair. I learned how to be ok with loneliness and I learned how to slow down when I broke my ankle.

I turned 37 and wondered how at 37 I know nothing when I remember my mom being 37 and knowing everything.

I walked away from friendships and families that did not improve the quality of my life and learned that intimacy is scary but totally worth it.

Adrian got a 5 year Happiness Journal. Every day for 5 years he writes one sentence about what made him happy that day. I am sure that some of the days it will be a struggle to find out what he was happy about...when monotony and real life take over, it is hard to remember if you laughed or felt joy that day. And I am sure there will be days that one sentence will not cover the joy he has experienced. I agreed to do the experiment with him. Only I will do mine publicly.

January 1, 2013:

I am happy that I am strong enough to live this life.